On Being Your Child

It’s been eleven years when our lives were changed after losing my dad but I could still feel him around just like You. He is now with You I know, and that thought comforts me more than enough.  Leaving the world for good might be too scary for a few but for me it’s not. I don’t know but maybe because I knew for sure that I’ll be seeing dad again but hey, He is with the Father already. I don’t know if what should I feel would be right for You but I only know that in loving You I cannot go wrong.  I don’t mind having no titles.  I just hope that those who have can carry, stand it up, and walk the title alongside Jesus’ face.    Dear Father, remind me that I am nothing.  Days and days went by and I’m still in the look for my purpose on earth.  Trials, betrayals, aches, rejections and pains – I faced them all!  I know I came to live for a greater purpose, not to be hurt or be in despair, but following You is just so, so HARD. So many times I found some real good spots on myself, they just died.  I choose to think I’m destined to have a fuller life and a deeper faith.  Relive the dead spots in me, Father.  I believe I can be better – better than what I wanted to be.  So here I am again, please carry me, dear Father, my feet are tired and restless; cover me with Your mighty hands and loving arms.  Be with me as I continue in aiming to be a light for others, in my own little way, not for the titles or fame, but all for Your glory.  Please set my heart to start it all over.